Life is full of doubts

Just yesterday we had a major discussion on how upgrading is to be changed. Thinking and thinking, don't know how to change it. Zhen wei wants a major change, but wad we all discussed it minor ones. Really thinking whether the whole system should change or not, even the trainees are thinking the training is dreadful, which is quite bad lor so must do something about it. Anyways the trainees had a very light training today and their sea entry and sea exit improved by alot, 18 seconds for 4 of them to come up. They also did mass capsize and ok lar, i feel their time quite ok, but e others not satisfied. Their 1st aid still sucks, cannot evac kumar quickly. Then tat tupid jia liang go ka jiao us during training... And yar actually they don't have any final pt today, but then jun jie go drop the kayak! So end up they did 100 for that. Reminds me of myself when i dropped my kayak during training that time, also slip then bang, but we kanna shit from nash and the other instructors, really do untill cry, do till the hands cannot move anymore. Do until the hands really cannot take it. Wah that was the past man~ the past~ Then the dyna glass trolley changed, in the end we have to help captain eric to beach the dyna glass up.
And yeah my cousin came over today, as usual he is always fighting over the TV with me, he even savagely attacked me when i didn't allow him to change channels. Lucky my pain threshold quite high can tahan his attacks... Anyways i gave in to him after that lar, but i think he abit too pampered. Cannot stand his attitude. Hope life will teach him the correct way in future~ my uncle is gonna migrate to perth next year, so i think i'll miss my little cousin, though i don't get to see him often anyway. But i would like to see him grow and be someone useful not someone like me who play and play only. Haha what wonders a society can do to a person~